Meatloaf Moment

Best ever meatloaf recipe!

Alright, this has to stop. I ate a second dinner tonight!

I do really well when I plan my day ahead and I had decided for more tacos for dinner, skipping the high calorie meatloaf. I ate my tacos at about 6pm, but my husband was late getting home. The kids weren't hungry, so the meatloaf just sat there and cooled. No problem.

I bought Trader Joe's frozen mashed potatoes for the first time for the ease of it.

About 8pm, everyone was ready for dinner. Except me, I had already enjoyed my spicy, crunchy tacos. It was time to serve up the plates.

I was very curious about the mashies...and then the struggle (which I lost!) began.

This all happened in a millisecond...I think my thoughts jumped from "I can get through this" to "what do those taste like" to "I better find out so I know whether or not to buy them again" to "this tastes pretty good". A taste is all it took and I gave in to my desire to eat the meatloaf AND potatoes.

I would have actually been ok if I had one slice and a portion of mashies, if I had just put it on a plate and weighed it, I could have enjoyed it. But I did the "one little bite" over and over and over, lying to myself the whole time.

I probably easily ate an additional 600 calories.

This is so not the end of the world, but I was really excited to press into 194 this week and I'm totally excited about 189!

I want to STOP sabotaging my efforts!

This got my thinking.

1-do not let this be an excuse to eat MORE potatoes tonight, it's going to be okay.
2-do not give in to the temptation to not weigh on the scale in the morning
3-it could have been a lot worse
4-move forward with my breakfast tomorrow, everyday is a chance to start anew, leaving the past behind

I do really quite fine all day. Then, about after 5pm, I really, really struggle with the delicious freshly made food I make for my family! I need to figure this out.

My brain seems to turn off. I succumb to the idea that I don't care about losing weight, I just WANT IT!

So...

I eat my oatmeal at 9amish. It is very satisfying and nutritious.

I eat my daily salad somewhere between noon and 1pm usually. It is also very satisfying and nutritious.

About 3ish I'm ready for a snack. Right now that's some bean soup.

Then around 5:30 I'm really ready for a meal. The way I have things now, I've about 700 calories remaining for dinner. That's a huge meal! What if I ate that for breakfast instead? I could eat my salad for dinner and my oatmeal for lunch? Just a thought. I wonder how that would go?

I've also been thinking about starting my day with last night's dinner so I would be ending my calories with my 3pm snack. That would be very interesting to try. It would put some pressure on staying within my limit for dinner, because that meal would carry over to the next day.

I'm going to adjust MyFitnessPal to have my dinners carryover and see how I like it. This is the grand experiment and my experimentation has brought me here. I have to remind myself that I'm doing well. I've lost over 30 pounds in 18 months. That's a really big deal for me. I'm not comparing myself to anyone else. I know I'll keep it off because it's been about real, sustainable change.